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Writer's Block: Hell Hath No Fury 
2nd-May-2008 10:23 am
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Who was the last person who really made you mad?


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My mother. Any conversation we have immediately turns into a disagreement because she doesn't seem to understand anything about my life.  According to her, I'm lazy, unmotivated, and don't contribute anything to the family. Never mind the fact that I'm in school and work when I am at home. She'd rather me have a McDs job than search for something worthwhile just so I can give her my paycheck. I actually have to lie about how much I make so that she won't take so much of it. Yes, she charges me rent + 1 bill each month. I don't even  fucking live in the house! All the more motivation to get my own place.

My sister. Various issues but we are growing apart. It's sad because we had gotten semi-close for the first time. I think part of is that I will now have a degree and she had to stop college after her sophomore year. Though, I really don't think she has any intention of ever going back. I think she's a bit pissed that I'm the one "living the dream" of becoming a shrink. She always says how easy  I have it with "no bills, or people to support". She forgets that I've been paying for my own education all this time. She didn't have to pay - parents liked her.

Sis' BF spouting off racist wanna-be scientific examples about why Europeans are the best group on the planet and Africans are inferior. Makes me want to be violent. I don't think I will be having much communication with him. Our conversations always end in an argument about how he is reading propoganda. And I of course am just fighting for the underdog. I think he forgets that I am an African. But of course, when he realizes, he goes, oh there's always the exception. Fuck you you racist prick. Worst part is he makes my sis believe in this BS too. And tells it to my brothers - telling them being mulatto is what makes them smart. Fuck you. When we walk in the street, people don't think there are those mulattoes, they think there are some Black people. I honestly wish he'd get the hell out of our lives.
And the worst part of that is he has no job! He's being supported by her. (Idiotic people and their first loves. I hope she wisens up soon. She deserves so much more than what he can offer.) What kind of grown man let's a woman support him and then can claim any type of masculinity! He doesn't help around the house, doesn't do anything! , just plays video games. Meanwhile, she's working hard at the police academy to support him. It's really not fair. When she was living at home, he chastised her and said she was immature to still be getting supported by parents. As soon as she moves out to her own place, he gives up his place, quits work, does drugs and moves in with her. Then gets arrested and has her foot the bail and lawyer fees. Now he's using that as an excuse to not get a job. BS. If you try you can find a job. But he's too proud to do telemarketing, McDs, cooking, anything service industry. But hey, if you don't have even a HS diploma thats what you get til you can find something more. He is just so disgusting and a sorry excuse for a man.

Wow, I guess I really needed to get all this out. Thanks LJ for the wonderful justified vent moment.
Comments 
2nd-May-2008 11:45 pm (UTC)
your sister sounds like she has no self-esteem. i think that whole 'mulatto' speech is helping him keep her down and from kicking his ass to the curb where it belongs.
3rd-May-2008 01:48 am (UTC)
yeah she went from very high to very low self-esteem. it's been a horrible thing to watch. though, i think the academy is making her value herself more i don't think she's seeing how much of a loser he is yet because she doesn't socialize with other young people. it's basically home and work for her. i definitely agree that his racist shpeels are helping him to keep control over her. the sad part is she's so beautiful and with a great personality, and then she's with him - a scum bag. it's horrible to watch, i've talked to her about it and she seems to realize what is happening but content to do nothing (love she says) ...i give up, i can't force anything. so hopefully she'll come to her senses sooner rather than later.
3rd-May-2008 03:50 am (UTC)
Yeah, I'll be praying that the control he has over her is broken soon so that she can see her true value. Race has nothing to do with it; I hate when people try to use that "mulatto" stuff to say that someone is this and that but let one of us mess up and we're "those niggas!". It don't matter your bloodline...that doesn't make you smart! Send him up DC, we'll have a good time showing him the ropes, HAHAHA!
3rd-May-2008 04:35 am (UTC)
exactly! as soon as someone is not being "safe" they get disregarded. i really hate the whole mulatto myth. it's just one more tool to separate people.
3rd-May-2008 02:28 pm (UTC)
Time for you sister to kick his fucking ass. <3

Yes, she charges me rent + 1 bill each month. I don't even fucking live in the house! All the more motivation to get my own place.

My mother used to do that with me when I had 3 jobs and worked full time at school. Charged me for every damn thing. She still calls me a lazy and unmotivated...bastard..I mean, hi.
5th-May-2008 04:41 pm (UTC)
Wow... that's so wrong of your mother.
It must be so hard for you, :(

... I don't know how your sis can back up her bf when it comes to this stuff.
5th-May-2008 05:38 pm (UTC)
I have no idea why my sis is still with this guy either. It's really frustrating for me, and everyone else who cares about her. I've told her how we feel and she said she understood but then no change. I don't think I can do any more without ruining our already rocky relationship so I won't. I just hope she'll "see the light" soon.
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