My mother. Any conversation we have immediately turns into a disagreement because she doesn't seem to understand anything about my life.  According to her, I'm lazy, unmotivated, and don't contribute anything to the family. Never mind the fact that I'm in school and work when I am at home. She'd rather me have a McDs job than search for something worthwhile just so I can give her my paycheck. I actually have to lie about how much I make so that she won't take so much of it. Yes, she charges me rent + 1 bill each month. I don't even  fucking live in the house! All the more motivation to get my own place.

My sister. Various issues but we are growing apart. It's sad because we had gotten semi-close for the first time. I think part of is that I will now have a degree and she had to stop college after her sophomore year. Though, I really don't think she has any intention of ever going back. I think she's a bit pissed that I'm the one "living the dream" of becoming a shrink. She always says how easy  I have it with "no bills, or people to support". She forgets that I've been paying for my own education all this time. She didn't have to pay - parents liked her.

Sis' BF spouting off racist wanna-be scientific examples about why Europeans are the best group on the planet and Africans are inferior. Makes me want to be violent. I don't think I will be having much communication with him. Our conversations always end in an argument about how he is reading propoganda. And I of course am just fighting for the underdog. I think he forgets that I am an African. But of course, when he realizes, he goes, oh there's always the exception. Fuck you you racist prick. Worst part is he makes my sis believe in this BS too. And tells it to my brothers - telling them being mulatto is what makes them smart. Fuck you. When we walk in the street, people don't think there are those mulattoes, they think there are some Black people. I honestly wish he'd get the hell out of our lives.
And the worst part of that is he has no job! He's being supported by her. (Idiotic people and their first loves. I hope she wisens up soon. She deserves so much more than what he can offer.) What kind of grown man let's a woman support him and then can claim any type of masculinity! He doesn't help around the house, doesn't do anything! , just plays video games. Meanwhile, she's working hard at the police academy to support him. It's really not fair. When she was living at home, he chastised her and said she was immature to still be getting supported by parents. As soon as she moves out to her own place, he gives up his place, quits work, does drugs and moves in with her. Then gets arrested and has her foot the bail and lawyer fees. Now he's using that as an excuse to not get a job. BS. If you try you can find a job. But he's too proud to do telemarketing, McDs, cooking, anything service industry. But hey, if you don't have even a HS diploma thats what you get til you can find something more. He is just so disgusting and a sorry excuse for a man.

Wow, I guess I really needed to get all this out. Thanks LJ for the wonderful justified vent moment.

May is finally here!


Anyway...
I've decided to go to La Salle straightaway in the fall. I realized I would be wasting a year if I enrolled non-matriculated elsewhere. So, I'll just go, get it over with and focus on getting in a kick-ass Psy.D program. I'm thinking PCOM, Bryn Mawr, La Salle, Chestnut Hill. Maybe I'll even look outside of the city - BU med, UBC, SFU.. I have lots of options and I should not get bogged down on this one little step in my path.

I also decided to seek on-campus housing. La Salle is in a pretty crappy neighborhood compared to what I am used to but I think in the end living on campus for at least one semester will be good for me.
-I'll be able to focus on my studies; imposssible to do at home with nagging parents and whiny brothers. I don't want to be the default babysitter ever again
-I won't have a curfew. My 'rents seriously lock the screen door at 9pm and I have no way of getting in. 22yr olds  do not need curfews.
-I'll be able to get involved in campus life. people, events, etc
-I won't have to be on the BSL at 10pm at night unless I want to be.
-Independence. It's time for me to be on my own.

So, during the summer I'll be working mostly to save up for the car. It was really hard to decide between saving for a car or apartment but I realized the car is more beneficial
-won't have to live near La Salle; can even transfer to their suburban campuses
-can get a city job with benefits
-better job outside the city